You could say I have had a lot on my mind lately. It all comes back to one theme, though. One theme that I just cannot stop thinking about and reflecting over.
I, like many, enjoy my sense of routine. I am “type A” to a “T”. I enjoy feeling in control. I get giddy when I set out to plan ahead with various ideas and visions for the way things “should” go.
My birthday is 3 weeks from today. All I can think about is that despite all my plans and seeking control in my life, I have to admit that things aren’t even close to what I would have imagined for my life.
Not. Even. Close.
In fact, the past 6 months alone have revolved around God throwing off my “plans” one right after the other. You would think that would kind of piss me off. I won’t lie. At times, it did get very frustrating and leave me with mixed emotions. Yet if there is one thing I have learned in the past 6 or 7 years, it’s that change can be good.
In fact, change can be amazing.
When I was in college, I swore up and down I didn’t want to ever get married. Now, I have the best partner in crime that has supported me (and put up with me) more than anyone has in my entire life.
When I was growing up, I didn’t think I meant anything. I refused to believe that I had any worth or value. That all changed by realizing just how much I am loved.
When I did end up getting married, Peter & I made a plan to start trying for kids after our 5 year wedding anniversary. If I didn’t trust God when he told my heart otherwise, I would just now be trying to get pregnant and wouldn’t have the blessing of my two babies.
I could have fought inner change for a long time and held onto my grudges and blame games…but I opened up to a changed mind and let go of past hurts so I could live a new life of peace and love.
If things had gone according to my plans, I would be teaching part-time right now and not feeling near as fulfilled as I do with my work.
If I had let fear of change stop me, I would have never left behind my old site to venture into different avenues. I wouldn’t be living out a passion in helping others share in a love of fitness and health.
I don’t always like change. I rarely understand change. Sometimes I even outright dig in my heels, fight change, and get upset that it’s even a possibility. I make my plans and I want them to work. I don’t want the change!
Then I recall my life so far. I have lived and breathed that change is where growth happens. And I know I don’t have to fear change. I can 100% testify to the fact that my life has taken a complete 180…shaped for the better as I changed my heart through a relationship with Jesus. I know that while challenges undoubtedly await me and while more and more change will inevitably come, it will be okay. I can trust my God.
This weekend was bittersweet for Peter and I as we adjusted to a new change – an official change of where we call our church home. I know that might not seem like a big deal, but it is to us. How could it not be when it’s such a huge part of us? I questioned and fought…but in the end I prayed and reflected.
And I remembered…change can be amazing and open up new opportunities – in this case, new ways to more fully worship and praise God for all the changes He has lovingly sent my way so far. More change has happened in the 6 short years I have known Him than in my entire 28 on this Earth.
In sum, this is a message about CHANGE. While change is scary, it is many times worth it. Don’t take it lightly, but be open to it and fully embrace it when it happens. Let the change in and let the growth happen.
Thank you for listening to my reflections today.
Your Turn – What are some big and unexpected changes that have happened in your life?
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