It’s my birthday! It’s my birthday! Although, I’m thinking you might know that by now – between the birthday giveaway and my birthday treat fest I already shared this week. But still. It’s my birthday and that deserves a special birthday post.
Ohhhh, I could recap the past year and all the wonderful things that have happened. Like running my first half marathon…then my first full marathon…then the marathon that is dealing with injuries. I could talk about some of the great trips I took or the blogger meet-ups I attended. I could talk about the changes I went through last year. Nope. Not gonna do all that.
Instead, I’m going to ramble. It means something to me…and I hope it will maybe mean something to you too.
What have I overcome?
Many emotionally abused years…even including my own father telling me to take my own life.
Two serious attempts at following that “advice”.
Years of thinking only the worst about myself…since you could only be “worthy” if you were “perfect”.
A time period of severe sexual promiscuity. I’m not talking promiscuity of sex before marriage, but seeing multiple guys in one night type of promiscuity. It pains me to think of how little I valued myself and my body at that time.
A time where I also couldn’t remember multiple nights out of my week due to an overabundant consumption of alcohol. I numbed myself with booze. Then, I left that behind and turned to food.
Binge eating. YEARS of food addiction.
Habitual lying. Anger. Resentment. Violence towards myself or loved ones. It should still shame me so much to think of some of the ways I acted.
It doesn’t shame me, though, because I know without a doubt that while those things shaped me, they ARE NOT WHO I AM TODAY.
I am immensely thankful for all things I experienced, because I am what I have overcome. I am freed. I am worthy. I am strong. I am loved. I am all the things God says I am. I also believe that YOU are all those things too. You are not your past…you are so much more. You are strong. You are worthy. You are loved. You can be freed from it all too, if you aren’t already. I believe that to my core. So much that tears run down my face as I type this.
We are not what we’ve done. We are what we’ve overcome…and that includes what we’re striving to overcome in our actions today. Thank you, Lord, for helping me overcome…and thank you that we all have what it takes inside of us to continue overcoming, because our pasts do not define us. That’s all I wanted to say on my birthday. I can’t think of anything else I would rather have on my birthday than the knowledge of that truth.
Inspiration for these thoughts came from this song by Fireflight. I encourage you to give it a listen.
if only you could see me yesterday – who I used to be before the change
you’d see a broken heart – you’d see the battle scars
it’s funny how words can’t explain – how good it feels to finally break the chains
I’m not what I have done – I’m what I’ve overcome
Your Turn – Please share something you have overcome…then think of how AMAZING you are!