I started blogging back in January of 2010. It seems so long ago. Has it really been four years already? I spent almost two years blogging at Faith, Fitness, Fun – a blog where I shared more day to day life and how I approached health and fitness. Eventually, it didn’t suit my style and goals anymore and I considered leaving the blog world. I had just gotten certified as a NASM personal trainer and wasn’t sure which route I wanted to take. During prayer, I found myself with the idea of switching sites and doing online training.
That has led to here. The past 2 years and 2 months I have enjoyed sharing workouts, discussions on living a healthy lifestyle, a bit of life, and other such insights and topics. I have had much pleasure working with individual clients for awhile and then helping to build an online fitness community and watch it grow, just as the women involved did in their strengths and fitness level. It has been incredibly rewarding.
Yet, I sit here again at a crossroads of sorts. Maybe there is something about the two year mark? I don’t know. What I do know is that I have had many times where I feel a tugging at my heart to consider this path before me. What truly fulfills me? Where do I want to go moving forward? What are my hopes and dreams? Is it time for a change?
My heart desires more focus on family and increased attention to personal relationships. I find myself longing to simplify life in a meaningful way. I feel more drawn to incorporating my passions for fitness and wellness in a more personal capacity, such as in my goal to teach yoga someday. I want to make space to support my husband, as he has so fully supported me, in some possible future business ventures. Basically, I want to live life more purposefully and have had to determine what lines up with that intention and what does not at this time.
I have struggled lately with how to meld these visions for my life alongside what has been a strong passion of mine for the past four years. And while I do feel like I have made many positive changes to do so, I cannot deny the continued changes in life that have led to this point and the possibility of letting some things go. I must allow myself the consideration that I may have reached a point where what has been a big part of my life for four years no longer complements where I am feeling called to go…or let go, as the case may be. It’s hard. And it’s scary.
So, I will come right on out and say it. I plan on moving on from blogging and online training. I don’t ever plan to move on from helping others to see the fun in fitness and to find the joy in appreciating their bodies for what they can do over what they look like. What does this mean?
I will not be blogging here for the time being…and quite possibly anymore at all. And as for BBB – the Winter 2014 round of Best Body Bootcamp begins Monday. What about it? It WILL still go on and I WILL still give it my 100% effort, just as I have always done. In fact, I feel as though this has been the best round I have put together yet. There will still be workouts with video, community support, and prizes. I will still be checking in, interacting, and ready to provide help any way needed. But I also accept that it likely will be the last round I do, too.
I will still be around on things like Instagram and of course involved with BBB and am always happy to connect via email…but I don’t know, or even really believe, I will be returning here. I will, of course, continue to pray for wisdom on where God is truly leading me. To know what is best for both my family and my personal fulfillment. Right now I feel it is time for a change, but I will continue to pray and seek God’s will and where my heart leads me.
This is, quite frankly, madly frightening to open my heart to such a big change and moving on from something I have so dearly loved for so many years. Yet I know when I get the heart to consider something new and different, I can’t ignore it. Although, believe me, I tried for a long time. Then I have to remember that the last time this happened, I ended up here. So I know only good can come of these reflections and the decisions that come from them. I may not know where it’s going to end up…but I do know I can trust, no matter how hard the decision may be for me or anyone else. Know that I love you and cannot thank you enough for the past four years.
Until next time…whenever that may, or may not, be.